I Thought I Had A Position…VENTING

i play bass guitar. i enjoy it.

i also play on the worship team at my church. or so i thought.

you know when you get really excited about doing something but then you never end up getting to do it? well that’s how i feel right now.

i went on a 2 week missions trip so i said i was unavailable. and i have been back for almost 3 weeks now and haven’t played at all. i don’t understand this. i’ve only actually played 2 times in the last….3 months. i don’t even feel part of the team.

playing worship music is a passion of mine. i LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE doing it. so why if you have a talented musician who loves playing and is available most of the time, would you not have them play?

i’m really bummed out. i just wanna stop going. because i just get pissed off all the time.

i would really hate that it’s because someone wants a “supergroup” worship team. i don’t think thats right.

i would hope that it’s not because i’m not good friends with the leader. that i’m not in the “in crowd”.

i would hope that it’s a giant mistake. a mental error. something that can be fixed and maybe an apology given.

i just don’t mean to sound selfish. i just want things to be fair. especially in this setting.