Ignore What I Said Before

Goodness.

She is such a sweetheart. and cute too!!!!

Boy, do I love smiling!!!

Drama, Beer Pong & Jesus

I have delayed writing this blog for a long while but not anymore.

I don’t get why people watch The Hills, The O.C., The Real World, or any other show where it’s main plot line is drama. It just causes people(for the most part) to find ways of causing drama in their own life. It’s kind of goes along with my garbage in/garbage out theory. I just don’t like it. I think it’s dumb.

Now onto what i really wanted to talk about.

Beer Pong and loving Jesus. Or excessive alcohol and loving God. or underage drinking and being a follower of Christ. i think it’s wrong. beer pong is a game where you set up 10-15 cups and fill them 1/2 way with beer and try to eliminate your opponents cups by throwing a ping-pong ball into the cup. the main point is to drink at a fast pace while making it fun. i don’t get how you can call yourself a Christian and want to play this “game”, let alone every weekend or at every party they attend. especially since a lot of those i know who do so are underage. i, as a 28 year old with experience drinking alcohol, don’t mind going out to a bar with some friends and having a few drinks and a burger. or having pizza, wings and a FEW beers at home. or even going to small party with some wine. but i do NOT understand people who go out and get drunk every weekend, or 3 times a week. and then to add to that, they go to church on the weekend (or in people i know) to Thursdays, and act like there was nothing wrong with what they did 1-2 nights before. would Jesus be proud of you? would Jesus even approve of that? i wouldn’t think so.

Also underage drinking really annoys me. ESPECIALLY kids in high school. taking pride in how much you can drink and how many times you got drunk is NOT cool. especially if you say you love Jesus on your myspace/facebook page. you think you can be a good witness while you have pictures of being trashed? you think people will take you seriously? if i was a Youth Leader i would call you out. it’s time to think about who you really are.

people will never take us seriously if we don’t take our beliefs seriously. getting drunk is not smart. saying Jesus has changed your life and getting drunk is really not smart. maybe you should grow up. maybe you should reevaluate your beliefs.

note: no one is perfect, i realize that.  but being obvious in your faults doesn’t help.

What’s The Point

why write blogs when no one reads them?

let alone comments on them…

I’ve Been Tagged

So, i have been tagged by my friend Melissa to tell 7 odd/interesting facts about myself. i hope you enjoy them and make fun of me, so i know who not to put in the will.

1. I have a dip in my chest. it’s not more than a couple tablespoons big. but it’s a family thing. and it’s weird.

2. i have a lot of spit. i tend to drool a lot when i’m really tired and sleeping on my stomach. and i have to swallow a lot when kissing. but i AM NOT a sloppy kisser or a slurrer of words. i think i’ve said too much.

3. i did not kiss anyone until i was 22 1/2. and i never have broken any bones, even though i have plenty of opportunity. they have nothing to do with each other really. whatever.

4. i LOVE the smell of markers/sharpies. not because i like to get high though. the flavored ones made classes in elementary school fun and interesting. my favorite is grape or licorice.

5. there are 5 things i will not eat: 1)olives 2)liver 3)cabbage/brussel sprouts 4)cottage cheese 5)caviar. don’t ask me to eat these things or i shall get upset at you. or possibly puke on you after ingesting them.

6. i really don’t mind the smell of skunk at all. but manure is probably the worst smell ever. and lilacs are my favorite smell.

7. i played clarinet from 6th-12th grade. i was a 3rd clarinet. we had all the easy parts which was cool for me because me and my friend Dan just sat in back and talked and still got an 88. and i still know how to play. who wants to start a polka band?!?!

Things That Make You Go Hmm

Ok, so this is actually about things that make you happy. or make me happy. because i was told i need to write a happy blog. which in reality isn’t all that hard. i just don’t get a lot of reminders. so here we go.

Laughing makes me happy. “well larry, that’s an obvious statement.” i agree. i wonder if there are people out there who actually hate laughter, maybe Osama Bin Laden. maybe Scrooge, but he changed. maybe the guy who crapped his pants when he laughed really hard while watching the Jeff Dunham special and has bad memories of people harassing him because of his bad smell and has thus sworn off laughter entirely. i digress! i love laughing. i love people who make me laugh. i love being a dork, which makes me and others laugh. when you take pictures and you both make weird faces and it just doesn’t come out perfect and one of you looks like a monkey and the other like a scared wombat. when you tend to sing to someone but don’t really try and you sound like a complete doofus. or you try to sound as weird as possible just to make the other person smile.or tickling someone to make them laugh and then they gouge you with their extremely deadly fingernails. all these things make me laugh. oh theres more. when people repeatedly hit you with a towel or stress ball and then when you try to attack them with tongs and they almost fall over. or accordion farts in walmart. oh how my life would be incomplete and utterly sucky without laughter. and here is a few of those people that make me laugh:

Smitty, Jessica, Mallory J, Rand, Devon, myself.

Music makes me happy. there is not a day that goes by that i do not listen to music. it makes the day go faster, it makes the day more entertaining. it gets me through tough times. it makes for good background noise. it’s also funny(see above). it is fun to dance to, it is fun to sing along to. it is fun to make up motions to. it is also awesome to praise Jesus/God to. imagine if we had to praise God without music, i think it would be quite boring. music reminds me of good times, even if those good times are gone. it teaches us lessons. it inspires us. that is one of the many reasons it makes me happy. here are some of my fav music for making me happy:

Jimmy Eat World, Hillsong United, Reel Big Fish, Mates Of State, Richard Cheese, Five Iron Frenzy, Zolof The Rock & Roll Destroyer, and Death Cab For Cutie

Hugs make me happy! who doesn’t love a good hug. they just make things better. whether you lost a loved one/friend. or if you are having a bad day. or just because someone loves you/appreciates you/cares about you. they are just awesome. and i guess i’m gonna throw kisses in there too. because come. DUH! unless it’s from your least favorite uncle huey or aunt ruth, who happens to have a beard, or you don’t like the person. but besides that, kisses make people happy.

Sleep makes me happy. this is obvious. lack of sleep usually means crankiness and attitude. and when you get ENOUGH sleep, things are just wonderful. and when you sleep, you have a chance of dreaming. dreams are good.

A combo of these two previous things is snuggling, pretty much the BEST THING in the entire world.

and last but not least:

FOOD makes me happy!!! i love eating yummy, delicious food. it makes my mood better, it helps me do things, it makes a party better. beef, chicken, ice cream, and fruit. all good things to fill my belly.

Here’s some verses about happiness:

Psalm 68:3
But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful.

Proverbs 15:13
A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.

Ecclesiastes 3:12
I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.

Ecclesiastes 7:14
When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.

James 5:13
Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise.

Two People

YOU – make me very happy, thank God for laughing. [you already know it's you so i don't have to say]

you – piss me off to no end, and you honestly think it’s helping.[hey this is my brother for all who were wondering! ]

Relient K Writes Songs I Need To Hear

“When I Go Down”

I’ll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I’m powerless
To dictate my own moods

I’ve thrown away
So many things that could’ve been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
No that’s not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I’ve learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I’ll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I’m so ready to be found

I’ve thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I’ve thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I’ve thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
No that’s not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I’ll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I’ll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it’s fallen man’s praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I’m dead and gone
It won’t be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won’t look very far
Cause you’ll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

Life Has Been Hard

If you think that it hasn’t then you obviously don’t know me.

Things aren’t as easy as you seem to think. jobs don’t come as easy as you think.

I for the first time in my life have applied for public assistance. I hate it. I feel like all the people who sponge off of the government but never do half the things I do to progress myself. I don’t know if I’m even accepted. but when you only have $6 to your name and no one is calling back looking to hire me, I don’t have much of a choice.

I want to stay in Batavia. I love my church. I love my friends. but everything has been working against that. maybe I’ll be homeless, that should be fun. anyone have a tent they can let me borrow? I’ll live in one of the many parks here and try not to get arrested.

I want to move to VA, but I can’t do that with no money. maybe when I sell my car I will move soon after. there isn’t much keeping me here, despite all the good things i do mention. i feel like I just end up getting sucked down in this hole called Western NY. and it’s painful. I don’t think I’ve ever been more depressed as I have lately. the lack of food, the lack of hope, the lack of plans working out, lack of respect(which is the worse out all of them).

But Jesus is good to me. He provides me with generous friends, with patient roommates, with freedom, with nice weather.

Why is the question. what am I supposed to learn? why is all this crap happening to me? where do I go from here?

all i know are these verses:

Psalm 14:6
You evildoers frustrate the plans of the poor, but the LORD is their refuge.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans i have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Ephesians 1:11
In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will.

A Short Thank You List

i would like to thank some people who have been quite influential in my life as of late. they are amazing people and i have not only learned from them, but have learned that not all of humanity if selfish and dumb.

Jessica Hishman – this girl has been a great friend to me, relying on me to help her through her struggles and encouraging me in mine. she has a kind heart and a great laugh, and with that a great sense of humor. she has showed me that we all need each other, even in the little ways. she is also an awesome hugger. and gives selflessly. God will honor her in her sacrifices. she is a dork(it’s a good thing).

Melissa Olear – this girl is super sweet. she gives me words of hope and motivation. she is someone who has a outside view of where i am and still knows that i am a helpful, useful person. she gives me good hugs and a smile that makes the day just a bit better. she writes blogs(found on here) that inspire, surprise and make me smile. she has a heart of gold, and a good head on her shoulders. and boy does she love Jesus!

Rand Fisher – this guy is a GREAT friend. we spend a lot of time together and ALWAYS enjoy each others company, even though we are different in a lot of ways. we respect each other, which goes a long way in these recent times. he is always willing to give advice, give a funny joke, or a helping hand when it isn’t even asked. God will bless him for that. We listen to a lot of music together(although i like to more than he does. he actually likes conversation[weird i know]) and always have a view on it that compliments each other(usually). he’s got a sweet ride and is a good exercise buddy. he also is a good encourager and loves to help others. he is awesome!

Mallory Lynch – this girl is nothing short of amazing. she has been through hard times but still refuses to let it make her bitter. she is a total sweetheart and someone who takes to heart a compliment or a kind word. she has a killer awesome smile. she makes me feel like a million dollars. she is cheesy and corny, but just at the right times. she is VERY easy to talk to. which is nice. she does things not because she will gain anything from it, but because that’s the good/right thing to do. she fully admits to not being perfect. and makes steps to make herself better, not only physically, but mentally/spiritually as well. even though i haven’t known her as well(even though a bit longer in reality) as the others, she has really stepped up to the plate in making my life better. she is SPECIAL(ed? lol)

Jaime Keller – oh man, this guy is a tough cookie. he has recently become a Christian. and he is going through all sorts of struggles. the devil is attacking him all the freaking time. but you know what…he keeps on. even though its hard. really hard. and he asks advice from friends, he SEEKS encouragement. he wants to use his gifts for God. that is massive. he INSPIRES me to keep on keeping on. to NEVER depend on yourself. ALWAYS on God. i have learned the most from him than out of any of the others, and i’m sure he doesn’t even know it. he gives me advice that i know is tested and true. he is a SMART man. he loves people, i can see it in his face. he is a cool dude. he loves 90’s music, which is good, because so do i.

Smitty(aka Justin Smith) – this guy makes me laugh. laughter is good. seriously he is freaking GREAT. i love the dude. he is funny, and just a super cool human being. he is like the brother i always wanted. he is THE MAN!

and last but not least,

God – He makes all these people possible. He makes the sun shine, the weather warm in late October, the rain fall when i am sleeping. He loves me, He LOVES me!!!! He forgives me. He gives me a hope, a heart and a passion for loving others. He NEVER EVER gives up on me. I LOVE HIM. yea he’s pretty SWEET! or GNARLY(haha).

THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

you people mean a lot to me.