The Black Sheep It Seems

So Christmas isn’t really my favorite holiday. it is a good holiday to sleep and relax. and eat food. just like a lot of the other family holidays/gettogethers.

but this year was very frustrating. sometimes i’d rather receive no gifts than the ones i got. i did enjoy the socks and electric toothbrush i got. and all the gifts i got from friends. the books were all AMAZING! but i really don’t think my family knows me or tries to get to know me that well. i got a flashlight. i got pretty much the same flashlight that i got last year. which is still in the package because i have no need for a flashlight. i also got a USED cd case. not something i asked for, nor did i need. i am wondering what my family is actually thinking when they are getting gifts for me. and it’s not like i’m a little kid where anything makes me happy. i am 28. an adult, who likes to do adult things. i am thankful for the gift card to Hot Topic. but that also seems like they took no time to find out what i really wanted. it’s so frustrating feeling like they don’t really care all that much about me because i have piercings and tattoos. and i don’t have a lot in common with the rest of the family as far as they are concerned. they don’t take the time to find out either.

my friends got me gifts that are 100x as good. and that’s kind of sad. again, i’d rather not receive any gifts than the ones i got. i just wish i didn’t get treated like the black sheep.

Dedication Of Awesomeness #5: Mallory Jean Lynch

 

Hmmmm what to say.

I have not known Mallory all that long. i actually met her a year and a half ago at Jordan Brill’s Graduation party.  she didn’t have any clue who i was and all i knew of her was that she knew CZ. she was one of those Hoax groupies. i dont even think we talked at the party. but that was the first time i saw her. and it was like “who’s the cute girl with the nice eyes?” not much has changed about her since then. she’s still ultra cute and her eyes are still just as pretty. of course now i get to see them a lot closer.

The main reason for Mallory being awesome is that she talks/IM’s me almost every single day. i like having conversations, even if it’s over instant messenger. and i also see her about 3 times a week. she goes to ThuRsdays, and has now started attending Northgate for both weekend days(this sorta sounds like Smitty a little bit). she starting going to Thursdays because her friend Amber finally decided she wanted to go. Mal hates doing things by herself. well now that she’s met me there will be no worries in that department. “i know EVERYONE!”

she has a brain. which considering her age is rather rare. she doesn’t fly off the handle when something bothers her. she doesn’t want things to end up bad. she asks questions. these are all good things that get problems resolved. although sometimes she doesn’t understand things she tries to. it’s nice to know that a girl isn’t as crazy as the rest of them at such a pivotal age.

Mallory makes me smile. she gives me the dorkiest compliments and says random odd comments to make me smile and laugh. and she also acts like she’s mad at me to get me to be really nice to her and then she giggles b/c she can’t do it. i love her face. it’s just so adorable! few people can make my face hurt from smiling just by smiling at me. she has that ability. sometimes it’s like she’s a cute 2 year old that you can’t help but smile at and sometimes she’s that girl that gives you butterflies so you can’t get the grin off your face.

She is going to school to be a nurse. she will graduate this coming spring with her 2 year degree. i am very proud of her because not only is it a huge workload but it’s also a unselfish profession. she studies(sometimes less than she should but i put the blame on me sometimes for that) and has done really well on her tests. maybe one day when i’m in the hospital for doing something retarded she will be there to laugh at me and take care of me. that would be super sweet.

This girl has helped me through some rough times as of late. but not in the ways Smitty or my family has. in little subtle ways. she has gave me encouragement, told me to stay positive and told me to stop being negative because i really had no good reason to. she is good at that. and she goes from an extreme of being serious and helpful to dorky and weird. it’s a welcome change. and it makes me feel better!!!

We take awesome pictures together(if you haven’t seen our facebook or myspace pictures, you should). seriously, we are just plain amazing. and total dorks. which is pretty much the best thing ever.

I like Mallory a lot. She means a lot to me. for right now, she’s got my heart. and no one else will take of it like she can.

<3 <3 <3 

Double Dedication Day#2(Technically DOA#4): Justin Smith

He goes by many names:  Smittums, Smittles, Smittlefield, Schmittay, Boris(or maybe it the other one), Smith and most popular, Smitty. but most importantly to me: he is My Brotha From Anotha Motha.

i met Smitty through a former(?) friend of mine Julie. they both worked at the college radio station and then began to date. she went to ThuRsdays and decided to bring him along. he didn’t come all the time at first but then his buddy Ryan started coming too so it gave him a better reason. well, his life has changed significantly since then. he is now a regular attender at both Thursdays and Northgate FMC and involved in the Tech Crew of both.

As seen in previous blogs(Happy & Thank You) this guy makes me laugh. he makes me laugh like no other! we have had many adventures together that have ended up in one of us on our knees or backs laughing hysterically until we tear up or lose our breath. we have inside jokes that some people will never understand nor do some of them want to. we laugh at each others pain(not in a really bad way). for example tonight while playing Apples To Apples i put down a card with Helen Keller on it. considering the category, it was just too wrong of an answer; but me and Smitty, on opposite sides of the table(with 11 people), looked at each other and proceeded to crack up and almost fall out of our chairs.

one thing that makes our relationship interesting is the fact that we are both weirdos. me being more so than he is. this cause me to hurt Smitty’s brain. he says it all the time. “You make my brain hurt! GAH!!!” but i think he puts up with me because for all my retarded behavior i make him laugh twice as much as i confound him.  i don’t think it’s ever come to a point where i have pissed him off. at least not on purpose. that’s why he’s so cool. he’s a really understanding guy. more than most people give him credit for. he puts up with a lot of crap sometimes.

I owe Smitty a lot. there’s been lots of times where there is a group of us hanging out and i forget that i don’t have a car, and he offers to take me home and it’s out of his way; and/or the weather might be crappy or it is really late at night and he has to work in the morning. he’s even paid for me to come to HIS birthday party and adventures! i seriously can’t think of more than 2 people ever in my entire life that would do that. that seriously blows me away. he has also bought me food plenty of times. now that’s a good friend. we all know i like to eat. and he doesn’t like me starving, because i’m a skinny boy and he’s…not. haha. and i think he feels bad for me. but anyhoo. yea, he’s really come through for me these past 2 years.

i have also gone on a few family get-togethers with him. visiting his cousins and grandparents and all the craziness that ensues because of it. i’ve actually met a few new friends because of said adventures. and had many an interesting moment as well. oh if you only knew(you really DON’T want to).

Seriously, Smitty is my brother. he’s very important to me and how my life has turned out. he has been there through some of the tough times in the past year, especially in the last 2-3 months. i don’t know if i could handle it all without him. i know the guy cares a lot about me and i never thought that would happen, because most guys are jerks and do things only to benefit themselves. HE IS A GOOD FRIEND. probably my best friend.

I love Smitty. He is my family. And he is cool as beans and makes my life joyous. He is my Best Man.(and no…i’m not getting married yet).

DJ SMITTY IS IN THE HOUSE YA’LL!!!!

Double Dedication Day#1(Technically DOA #3): My Cousin Jonathan J. Shetler

My cousin Jay is a guy for all guys and he is awesome! he is one of the nicest guys you will ever meet, he’s good at sports and a smart guy.

i have grown up seeing Jay almost every holiday and many more times throughout the year. i remember every family gathering we had a football game. i always picked him for my team. why? not because he was amazingly fast or ran people over(because he certainly was too small for either). it’s because he had heart and had so much fun. he always laughed when tackled and never gave up when tackling someone else. for example when he gripped onto your leg, he did not let go. even if you pulled him along and still scored. he took on my brother, my HUGE cousin George, and me. and always had fun doing it.

he is one of my favorite cousins(him and his sister Heather). he’s always had a good attitude about things. he is kind of quiet. which is a good thing. someone in the family has to be. haha. he is very good at sports. anything you throw at him he can handle pretty dang well. another example is his first time ice skating a few months back. he just straps those blades on and goes on to skate pretty well, falling maybe 2 times, and score a few goals(while playing with a left handed stick!!!). he is pretty dang good at volleyball. he played on his high school team and plays on the club team for college. it’s nice that you have someone that loves playing the sport as much as you do and is really good, so we work well together.

J.J.(as many in the family know him as) is also a smart college student on the verge of graduating with a degree in Electrical Engineering. he goes to Clarkson which is this college in Potsdam way up in northern NY. now as soon as he graduates he will make a minimum of 50k a year. how can a kid be so lucky as to be great at sports and be smart? GOSH! AND he has some of the coolest parents ever! as mentioned here: DOA#2

Jay loves Jesus! yes, yes he does. you can tell in the way he treats other people, the way he treats his parents and sister, and the way he treats me. no one is perfect but he knows that without Jesus, life just isn’t cracked up to be as good as it is. i want to be like him a lot of times. he inspires me to better myself at a lot of things. in sports, in becoming somebody, and most of all being real. he is an honest dude and i really admire that.

there are so many more things i can say about him, but he’s just too awesome for words.

Jay I Love You! you are seriously the coolest guy a cousin can ask for. keep on being you and never give up on anything.

Two People

YOU – make me very happy, thank God for laughing. [you already know it's you so i don't have to say]

you – piss me off to no end, and you honestly think it’s helping.[hey this is my brother for all who were wondering! ]