Relient K Writes Songs I Need To Hear

“When I Go Down”

I’ll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I’m powerless
To dictate my own moods

I’ve thrown away
So many things that could’ve been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
No that’s not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I’ve learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I’ll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I’m so ready to be found

I’ve thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I’ve thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I’ve thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
No that’s not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I’ll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I’ll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it’s fallen man’s praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I’m dead and gone
It won’t be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won’t look very far
Cause you’ll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

Just A Few Prayer Requests

+for my friend Emily. she’s got court dates and she’s stressed and it has to do with her family. and that causes a lot of hurt.

+for me getting a job before i leave so i can get  my car running,  some money saved,  and all my bills paid off.

+for Virginia and me. i will be moving there hopefully by October. God has big plans. i just want them to go smoothly this time.

+for my friend Rachel. that she realizes God is there no matter what and that she would always depend on him.

+for my friend Kevin, he just bought a new house and has a semi new baby, and is starting a new church. he is stressed.

Thank You.

God Is Freaking Awesome!!!!

simple post:

4 hrs.

(50+) 9-17 year olds worshiping God.

redemption, forgiveness, personal communion.

this is the best thing ever. EVER!!!! 

who knew kids would inspire ME!?!?!

Nothing But Feelings & A Softball Injury

so i was thinking the other day. yes i do that from time to time.

i was playing softball the other week and i injured myself sliding back into second base.

it was the dreaded brush burn. the injury that doesn’t really hurt at first but half an hour later you definitely feel it. then it scabs over and begins to heal. but the pain does not go away. NOOOO! it is a tender scab and it might not heal for 2-3 weeks.

i realize it’s the same way with being hurt emotionally, mentally or spiritually. you don’t always realize how much it affects you then BAM! you feel the pain or the loss. you do your best to take care of it but the pain doesn’t go away when you want it to. there is a time of healing, of tenderness. sometimes you might have a scar showing, the proof that you went through a difficult time. sometimes something won’t be healed or get fixed without outside help.

THAT is where God comes in. He will help heal us. He will help us through the difficult rehab process. He will be there to give advice on how we can grow and get better from a hurtful experience.

God will provide us with friends, colleagues, pastors, and random strangers to help us. He loves us that much!

here are a few verses that might help out:

(All are in NIV translation unless noted otherwise)

Job 16:5
But my mouth would encourage you; comfort from my lips would bring you relief.

Psalm 86:17
Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Isaiah 49:13
Shout for joy, O heavens; rejoice, O earth; burst into song, O mountains! For the LORD comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.

2 Corinthians 1:4
who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

2 Corinthians 1:3
[ The Rescue ] All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too. (The Message)

God Bless.