I’m A Slacker I Know…

So it’s been over 2 months since i last posted. Most of that blame lies on the lack of internet at my aunt’s house. The other is my pure laziness in actually writing anything.

A few good things have happened and a few bad things have happened.

But as of this moment i do not want to be here.

I know it’s hard to say that and then try and explain why, but i just don’t feel right around here. small things seem to be good and then big things happen that suck really bad.

Lately, I’ve learned that i can’t really trust people. maybe a few. but it seems that people like to cause hurt and drama, just because it makes them feel better about themselves…or so it seems. there is a loss of friendship and trust when people feel the need to gossip. especially when it hurts people feelings that were never intended to be hurt. but people gotta keep on talking don’t they. there’s a verse in the Bible that says not to let any unwholesome words come out of your mouth unless it’s edifying(which means to make better or positive) others. gossip definitely does NOT do that.

I don’t believe some people actually will ever mean what they say. in maybe a feel good moment or something that diffuses a situation they will say the “right thing” but then continue to be the complete opposite way. you maybe try to give them advice and they don’t want to hear it because non one should tell other people how to live right? even if it’s good for them!? i know no one is perfect, but can people not take advice without criticizing the giver? and do some of those people even want to change unless it’s convenient for them?

My group of friends is a church group. or so it seems. We don’t act like it. We act more like a social club that meets in a church. i’m just as guilty as the rest of them. We don’t act like followers of Jesus but we want all the benefits that come with it. We wonder why our families and friends don’t like church or aren’t serious about their faith. THINGS NEED TO CHANGE!!!

I put my heart into something that never was gonna be what i expected. it was a dangerous jump but sometimes you think people are better than the rest of the world. and now i am hurting a lot from it. something that will take me a long time to get over and a lot of forgetting that isn’t easy to do.

I want love. God’s love. love that doesn’t mind growing and changing. a love that knows it’s in for a difficult journey but is excited just the same.

Things will never be the same. I just want some positive thinking. i want people to WANT to be better, to grow, to improve. why just be like you’ve always been? i’m not down for laziness anymore. not in writing blogs, not in growing up, not in being a good friend, especially not in following Jesus and God’s call.

Things will never change if i never change.

So keep me in prayer. This will be a difficult journey and it might lead me other places, it might not.

Let’s be real. Let’s be different than the world. Let’s change it. Let’s be Jesus.

Love And What It Means To You.

So again, I haven’t written a blog in quite a while.  There’s not much to write about really. Well even though that is a poor excuse, that’s the one I am using.  But now you get a significant one. About someone i care a lot about. Actually it is TO her.  We can all learn from this though.

Love is patient.

Love is kind.

It does not envy.

It does not boast.

It is not proud.

It is not rude

It is not self-seeking

It is not easily angered

It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects.

Always trusts.

Always hopes.

Always perseveres.

Love never fails.

Think about that when I say it. Think about what all those words mean. I, Larry Snider, mean that every time I say it.

Why I Celebrate Christmas – Through A Song

“I Celebrate The Day” by Relient K

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You’ve touched my life
Because here is where You’re finding me, in the exact same place as New Year’s eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We’re less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I’ll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life

Jesus is the reason for this day. Happy Birthday Jesus and Thank You!

Ignore What I Said Before

Goodness.

She is such a sweetheart. and cute too!!!!

Boy, do I love smiling!!!

Things That Make You Go Hmm

Ok, so this is actually about things that make you happy. or make me happy. because i was told i need to write a happy blog. which in reality isn’t all that hard. i just don’t get a lot of reminders. so here we go.

Laughing makes me happy. “well larry, that’s an obvious statement.” i agree. i wonder if there are people out there who actually hate laughter, maybe Osama Bin Laden. maybe Scrooge, but he changed. maybe the guy who crapped his pants when he laughed really hard while watching the Jeff Dunham special and has bad memories of people harassing him because of his bad smell and has thus sworn off laughter entirely. i digress! i love laughing. i love people who make me laugh. i love being a dork, which makes me and others laugh. when you take pictures and you both make weird faces and it just doesn’t come out perfect and one of you looks like a monkey and the other like a scared wombat. when you tend to sing to someone but don’t really try and you sound like a complete doofus. or you try to sound as weird as possible just to make the other person smile.or tickling someone to make them laugh and then they gouge you with their extremely deadly fingernails. all these things make me laugh. oh theres more. when people repeatedly hit you with a towel or stress ball and then when you try to attack them with tongs and they almost fall over. or accordion farts in walmart. oh how my life would be incomplete and utterly sucky without laughter. and here is a few of those people that make me laugh:

Smitty, Jessica, Mallory J, Rand, Devon, myself.

Music makes me happy. there is not a day that goes by that i do not listen to music. it makes the day go faster, it makes the day more entertaining. it gets me through tough times. it makes for good background noise. it’s also funny(see above). it is fun to dance to, it is fun to sing along to. it is fun to make up motions to. it is also awesome to praise Jesus/God to. imagine if we had to praise God without music, i think it would be quite boring. music reminds me of good times, even if those good times are gone. it teaches us lessons. it inspires us. that is one of the many reasons it makes me happy. here are some of my fav music for making me happy:

Jimmy Eat World, Hillsong United, Reel Big Fish, Mates Of State, Richard Cheese, Five Iron Frenzy, Zolof The Rock & Roll Destroyer, and Death Cab For Cutie

Hugs make me happy! who doesn’t love a good hug. they just make things better. whether you lost a loved one/friend. or if you are having a bad day. or just because someone loves you/appreciates you/cares about you. they are just awesome. and i guess i’m gonna throw kisses in there too. because come. DUH! unless it’s from your least favorite uncle huey or aunt ruth, who happens to have a beard, or you don’t like the person. but besides that, kisses make people happy.

Sleep makes me happy. this is obvious. lack of sleep usually means crankiness and attitude. and when you get ENOUGH sleep, things are just wonderful. and when you sleep, you have a chance of dreaming. dreams are good.

A combo of these two previous things is snuggling, pretty much the BEST THING in the entire world.

and last but not least:

FOOD makes me happy!!! i love eating yummy, delicious food. it makes my mood better, it helps me do things, it makes a party better. beef, chicken, ice cream, and fruit. all good things to fill my belly.

Here’s some verses about happiness:

Psalm 68:3
But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful.

Proverbs 15:13
A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.

Ecclesiastes 3:12
I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.

Ecclesiastes 7:14
When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.

James 5:13
Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise.

A Short Thank You List

i would like to thank some people who have been quite influential in my life as of late. they are amazing people and i have not only learned from them, but have learned that not all of humanity if selfish and dumb.

Jessica Hishman – this girl has been a great friend to me, relying on me to help her through her struggles and encouraging me in mine. she has a kind heart and a great laugh, and with that a great sense of humor. she has showed me that we all need each other, even in the little ways. she is also an awesome hugger. and gives selflessly. God will honor her in her sacrifices. she is a dork(it’s a good thing).

Melissa Olear – this girl is super sweet. she gives me words of hope and motivation. she is someone who has a outside view of where i am and still knows that i am a helpful, useful person. she gives me good hugs and a smile that makes the day just a bit better. she writes blogs(found on here) that inspire, surprise and make me smile. she has a heart of gold, and a good head on her shoulders. and boy does she love Jesus!

Rand Fisher – this guy is a GREAT friend. we spend a lot of time together and ALWAYS enjoy each others company, even though we are different in a lot of ways. we respect each other, which goes a long way in these recent times. he is always willing to give advice, give a funny joke, or a helping hand when it isn’t even asked. God will bless him for that. We listen to a lot of music together(although i like to more than he does. he actually likes conversation[weird i know]) and always have a view on it that compliments each other(usually). he’s got a sweet ride and is a good exercise buddy. he also is a good encourager and loves to help others. he is awesome!

Mallory Lynch – this girl is nothing short of amazing. she has been through hard times but still refuses to let it make her bitter. she is a total sweetheart and someone who takes to heart a compliment or a kind word. she has a killer awesome smile. she makes me feel like a million dollars. she is cheesy and corny, but just at the right times. she is VERY easy to talk to. which is nice. she does things not because she will gain anything from it, but because that’s the good/right thing to do. she fully admits to not being perfect. and makes steps to make herself better, not only physically, but mentally/spiritually as well. even though i haven’t known her as well(even though a bit longer in reality) as the others, she has really stepped up to the plate in making my life better. she is SPECIAL(ed? lol)

Jaime Keller – oh man, this guy is a tough cookie. he has recently become a Christian. and he is going through all sorts of struggles. the devil is attacking him all the freaking time. but you know what…he keeps on. even though its hard. really hard. and he asks advice from friends, he SEEKS encouragement. he wants to use his gifts for God. that is massive. he INSPIRES me to keep on keeping on. to NEVER depend on yourself. ALWAYS on God. i have learned the most from him than out of any of the others, and i’m sure he doesn’t even know it. he gives me advice that i know is tested and true. he is a SMART man. he loves people, i can see it in his face. he is a cool dude. he loves 90’s music, which is good, because so do i.

Smitty(aka Justin Smith) – this guy makes me laugh. laughter is good. seriously he is freaking GREAT. i love the dude. he is funny, and just a super cool human being. he is like the brother i always wanted. he is THE MAN!

and last but not least,

God – He makes all these people possible. He makes the sun shine, the weather warm in late October, the rain fall when i am sleeping. He loves me, He LOVES me!!!! He forgives me. He gives me a hope, a heart and a passion for loving others. He NEVER EVER gives up on me. I LOVE HIM. yea he’s pretty SWEET! or GNARLY(haha).

THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

you people mean a lot to me.

Girlfriends And Boyfriends And Me

everyone seems to be getting them.

EVERYONE. but my life is too confusing and turbulent to have one.

but it still sucks. girls i used to like getting new ones. my guy friends starting new ones.

me, still single. still moving down south and having the potential of being single for another 3 years.

i seem to be venting a lot. it happens when very little good goes on and everyone around you have very littel bad happen to them. but i am happy for my friends.

also many of my friends, especially the newer ones, have been going through some tough times. it kills me to see them in pain. to see tears in their eyes, to feel unloved in family life, to be disrespected.

i wish i had super powers(besides my amazing hugs) to help them out. all i can do is pray and be there to give advice.

which by the way, i like to do. so if you need any, i’m here(seems to be not much else to do).

p.s. just so you know, i HATE when girls flirt online with me and then in real life, don’t really acknowledge me. do both, or neither.

p.p.s. i REALLY like HUGS.

Disaster Sets Itself Up With Impatience

i hate feeling the way i do right now. even though it’s really not something i know anything about.

i met someone. in the context of you are not allowed to like this person during the entire 2 weeks you spend with them.

you know when someone drops 10 bags of concrete on your shoulders and you fall under the weight and you just lay there saying “holy crap i can’t get up or do anything!”. yea thats what i feel like, and that’s what i have felt for the last 12 days.

i cannot explain it, i cannot get rid of it. i have prayed about it, i have wrestled with God over it and it has not gone away. now i’m wondering if God is trying to teach me a lesson or it it actually means what i think it does.

how do you go about thinking someone is amazing, but not knowing how to emote that, and make things happen.

i have been out of the dating scene for almost 4 years now. i am not sure how to go about telling someone that you hardly know them but they are wonderful. WONDERful is actually a good word. i wonder what the heck i’m doing. if this is even worth my time, my heart or my efforts. but i REALLY BELIEVE it is. i get this scary feeling she might be the one.

but alas there are MANY complications to it all. an ex/quasi-dating thing, distance, people getting pissed at me for liking her to begin with. and the last thing i want to do is step on toes. i HATE stepping on toes. (just think of what that feels like, if even accidentally.)

but she is AMAZING. like WHOAH!

maybe i just hope too much. but when a woman has all these qualities that i have looked for since i realized what i wanted in my early 20’s, how can you not??!?!!?

is there a chance? if there is, i will take it and run with it.

so i will wait on God. and let things unfold i guess. waiting isn’t a bad thing. especially when it’s an answer from God.

Nothing But Feelings & A Softball Injury

so i was thinking the other day. yes i do that from time to time.

i was playing softball the other week and i injured myself sliding back into second base.

it was the dreaded brush burn. the injury that doesn’t really hurt at first but half an hour later you definitely feel it. then it scabs over and begins to heal. but the pain does not go away. NOOOO! it is a tender scab and it might not heal for 2-3 weeks.

i realize it’s the same way with being hurt emotionally, mentally or spiritually. you don’t always realize how much it affects you then BAM! you feel the pain or the loss. you do your best to take care of it but the pain doesn’t go away when you want it to. there is a time of healing, of tenderness. sometimes you might have a scar showing, the proof that you went through a difficult time. sometimes something won’t be healed or get fixed without outside help.

THAT is where God comes in. He will help heal us. He will help us through the difficult rehab process. He will be there to give advice on how we can grow and get better from a hurtful experience.

God will provide us with friends, colleagues, pastors, and random strangers to help us. He loves us that much!

here are a few verses that might help out:

(All are in NIV translation unless noted otherwise)

Job 16:5
But my mouth would encourage you; comfort from my lips would bring you relief.

Psalm 86:17
Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Isaiah 49:13
Shout for joy, O heavens; rejoice, O earth; burst into song, O mountains! For the LORD comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.

2 Corinthians 1:4
who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

2 Corinthians 1:3
[ The Rescue ] All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too. (The Message)

God Bless.