God…

is the only one will never let me down.

My Life Seems To Be A Toilet

Seriously….My life seems to like throwing me curveballs. Or HBP balls. It gets better for a few weeks then goes down the drain again.

So I haven’t gotten paid yet for my 2 weeks of work. $350 is a lot to go without. especially since it’s a week late now and I have bills to pay. I work for a cleaning company and I work with a guy who pays me out of his check. I haven’t seen him in a week and a half. I didn’t work this week. I have $1.29 to my name. No job prospects in this sucky economy.

Church is about the only good thing. Storehouse is a great place and one of many escapes from my craptacular apartment.

UGH! Any advice people? Anyone wanna hire me?

Things I Like/Dislike About Philadelphia #2

 

 

Like – This area has a Chick-Fil-A. i love that place! even tho it’s not open on Sundays. It also has a Chipotle, Trader Joe’s and IKEA. All places with good food choices. IKEA actually has knives that are magnetic. That is pretty freakin’ cool! Most of these places are decently priced. Especially for the city.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Dislike – Many places hire people that have little to no experience, dress like thugs and are pretty much jerks. But a nice, experienced, indie guy can’t get a job to save his life. It makes no sense to me. I just don’t want to change who I am. This city is not full of brotherly love. It’s filled with selfish, all-about-me-and-what-i-deserve, dramatic, ghetto people. Well most of it anyway. And a lot are pro-Obama, even though the city has pretty much been worse off since they elected him.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Things I Like/Dislike About Philadelphia #1

LIKE – They don’t have bands skip out because of bad weather or lack of fans. Lots of bands come to the area, and for the most part the shows are decently priced. All are within 30 minutes away and close to lots of good food places.

DISLIKE – They don’t have bulk candy section in the grocery stores. How lame is that?!!? Maybe I don’t want a full pound of gummiworms! Maybe i only want 4oz and then 8oz of skittle mixed with gummi mints!!!!

Phone Calls And Memories

Honestly, who accidentally calls me, not meaning to, when their phone is in their pocket?

That just seems really weird and then you sing a band i love and a song i love too.

WEIRD!

It makes it hard to forget you.

What If #1: What If I Was Never Here?

What would it be like if I was gone? Unexpectedly. What would you do? How would your life be different?

Let’s hear it.

Things That Happen When You Grow Up: Maturity

There are certain things I cannot deal with. One of the big things is immaturity.

There are time where everyone is acting silly, where the mood is light and a off-color comment is welcome and just makes everyone laugh. Times when someone is feeling down and saying something silly cheers them up.

Then there are times when something sill and/or dumb is said when it is totally random. When it doesn’t pertain to the situation. When it makes no sense and is only used to gain attention. When everyone looks at the person who said it like “what the heck are you saying/what does that have to do with this?”.

These people annoy me to no end. They do things that make no sense just so people will look at them. It makes them look idiotic. And for the most part not funny at all. I guess this is ok when you are 15 or 16. A lot of these people are 19-23. You have to grow up sometime. I guess these people think they can ignore those rules of maturity. Some think it’s “not following the crowd” or “being different”. But that is not the case here. You can be different without sounding dumb.

One of the requirements of being mature is not saying something that makes another or a lot of people feel uncomfortable for no reason at all. You can’t purposely make yourself look like an idiot just because you can. If you were to do that in the real world everyone would ignore you and think less of you. They would not think you are “being different”, they would think you are being stupid.

Maybe some people should look at how they act and try to improve those actions. They should weigh the situation and see if the comments/actions are welcome. If not, then they should stop. You don’t set a good example of how to be an adult, which is what you supposedly are, but you need to.

No one is perfect, but some people try more than others as well.

The Crazy Things Your Mind Tells You

so i haven’t really written anything in over 3 weeks. i have some stuff that i jotted down and a few rough drafts that i was thinking about writing but they just didn’t need to be said quite yet.

but i had an odd dream last night. ok so as you know i have interesting dreams when i do. for example me being a UFC fighter and i was jacked and i fought 4 midgets who were also jacked with tribal tattoos to boot. i had to win in order to get the girl. it is one of many not so normal dreams. but the one last night was anything but typical, even for my dreams.

i had a dream i was blind. and everything i did was based on that. i couldn’t see faces, i only remembered people from my memory and what their voices sounded like. i couldn’t tell what they were wearing or what color/race they were. i listened, i used my nose, i used sounds to figure things out. it was all freaky and real.

i wonder if we could all experience that for a day how it would change our perception of people and how we judge people. things not based on appearance or what they own but who people were and what they said/talked about/cooked/smelled like. i am not a superficial person in anyway. i try to not judge people on how they look. i don’t pay attention to celebrities. i don’t really follow fashion and what’s cool. i don’t shop at H&M because everyone else does and that is what the look of the day is.

i want to be who God wants me to be. not what others want me to be. i want people to see Jesus in me through my actions, through my words, through how i sing, not how i look. although i do believe in modesty, we tend to judge people on how they look. i don’t think that’s right at all. especially in the kingdom of God.

What if we never worried about who was watching us worship, what if we never worried about how other people worship and just focused on God and our love for Him?

These are the things i thought about after waking up this morning. How would you live different if you were blind(besides the obvious relearning of things)?  would you love the same way? would you act the same way? would you be the same person or be completely different?

“Who needs eyes when you have hands?”

Dedication Of Awesomeness #2: My Aunt Jan & Uncle Brett

My aunt and uncle Shetler are pretty much my most awesome family members not counting my dad and cousins Jay and Heather(who happen to be their children).

The main reason i am writing this blog about them is that they raise their children better than pretty much anyone i have ever seen. they also treat everyone with a lot of respect, especially me. they treat me like a family member and not just some guy in his 20’s like some others that i’ve dealt with.

i have gone through some hard times, especially in the last 3 months. and they have been there for me. they have inspired me to keep trying and that God has a plan for me and to just be patient. i, in turn, keep their house warm by putting wood in the stove and keeping the dog(Midnight) company, which i happen to be quite good at!

Also they are some of the most entertaining people and have awesome senses of humor. they make me laugh constantly. they know their stuff , and what it takes to raise good kids, as well as good nephews.

i am so thankful that they love Jesus and God as much as they do and that it is an important part of being good parents. and they always keep me in check. they are just awesome!

i love them a lot and always will and hope to be as good a parent as they are and hope to repay them many times over for how they have been there for me.

YAY!!!!

Dedication Of Awesomeness #1: Jessica Hishman

Jessica is a very cool girl. She is, at the mere age of 19, a very talented individual and a very good friend. Jessica and I met when her friend Danielle, who i used to hang out with, brought her to ThuRsdays. We went to a few parties together and hung out quite a bit, and we still do pretty much because she is awesome and that’s the kind of people i hang out with. She is a talented snuggler and can make just about anyone laugh. She has helped me through many a tough situation, including putting minutes on my cell phone so she can call me. Also, she has bought me food and that is pretty much the most awesome thing anyone can do for me.

Jessica is my tattoo designer. she is making one that i am getting in dedication of my mom and also working on the daunting task of coming up with a fruit scheme for my lower half of my left arm sleeve. She will probably be designing more of mine and has also done art and ideas for other people’s tattoos. She is a VERY good artist even though some of her professors don’t like her bright colors and such. She draws stuff while in church too. and it’s GOOD! God has blessed her with that. She wants to be a professional tattoo artist. Which is stupendous because we are going to start a tattoo&piercing shop here in Western NY.

i get along with Jess very well. Even though she pinches me with her deadly nails(and by the way, don’t ever play any card game or any other game that requires hand movement and slapping: you will get gouged and bleed). She is quite funny and we have a few inside jokes. The main one being the “your mom/your face”  sayings.

Jessica is gorgeous. Whatever guy gets her will be lucky. She has so many good qualities, one of them not being racquetball skills. haha. Although she does try. She also likes good music, which is nice for me because i love music and it’s nice to sing songs together that we both know and like.

Finally, Jessica gives good hugs. And she asks for my advice. It’s nice to know someone trusts your judgment and appreciates your input.

YAY JESSICA!!!!!