So I haven’t gotten paid yet for my 2 weeks of work. $350 is a lot to go without. especially since it’s a week late now and I have bills to pay. I work for a cleaning company and I work with a guy who pays me out of his check. I haven’t seen him in a week and a half. I didn’t work this week. I have $1.29 to my name. No job prospects in this sucky economy.

Church is about the only good thing. Storehouse is a great place and one of many escapes from my craptacular apartment.

UGH! Any advice people? Anyone wanna hire me?

Hit the pavement and drive for the first time in a long time
And pray that everything works out fine
She said try to have a good time
And get your fill of cheap thrills
And try anything to save a dime
So lets get moving, and lets get grooving
To every single word we’ve grown to know
Until we get car sick, play our hands quick
And try to save ourselves along the way

You’re a gamble
You’ve got nothing left to lose (or prove)
You think you got me in the back of you pocket and you do
So take a breath and try to keep it down
Cause I love these girls but I hate this town
But I’m positive that theres nothing about you to get to know

Hit the lights and get down for the best time in a long time
And try to think of every last line
She said, Try to have a good time,
Don’t put up with the hard hits,
They’ll just hit you harder every time
That you get moving, you’ll just keep losing
What little but of mind that you have left.
So try and please me, and take it easy
And try to keep your thoughts above the belt.

You’re a gamble
And You’ve got nothing left to lose (or prove)
You think you got me in the back of you pocket and you do
So take a breath and try to keep it down
Cause I love these girls but I hate this town
But I’m positive that theres nothing about you to get to know

Ohh!

You’re a gamble
And You’ve got nothing left to lose
You think you got me in the back of you pocket and you do
So take a breath and try to keep it down
Cause I love these girls but I hate this town
But I’m positive that theres nothing about you… TO GET TO KNOW!

Like – This area has a Chick-Fil-A. i love that place! even tho it’s not open on Sundays. It also has a Chipotle, Trader Joe’s and IKEA. All places with good food choices. IKEA actually has knives that are magnetic. That is pretty freakin’ cool! Most of these places are decently priced. Especially for the city.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Dislike – Many places hire people that have little to no experience, dress like thugs and are pretty much jerks. But a nice, experienced, indie guy can’t get a job to save his life. It makes no sense to me. I just don’t want to change who I am. This city is not full of brotherly love. It’s filled with selfish, all-about-me-and-what-i-deserve, dramatic, ghetto people. Well most of it anyway. And a lot are pro-Obama, even though the city has pretty much been worse off since they elected him.

DISLIKE – They don’t have bulk candy section in the grocery stores. How lame is that?!!? Maybe I don’t want a full pound of gummiworms! Maybe i only want 4oz and then 8oz of skittle mixed with gummi mints!!!!

But I’ve decided to write about something, in specific actually. I am starting a series about the things I like/don’t like about this new city. I’ll pick 2 things, one positive and one negative, for each post. I hope you enjoy.

Oh, by the way, I live in North East Philadelphia. In the great state of Pennsylvania. Moved in January and will be here for some time.

P.S. Remind me by email/facebook/myspace/IM if I don’t update this for more than 4 days. Yes, 4 days. kthankx.

That just seems really weird and then you sing a band i love and a song i love too.

WEIRD!

It makes it hard to forget you.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Why is it harder to believe in God than not to?

Why does the nice guy never get the girl?

Why does the nice girl never get the guy?

A few good things have happened and a few bad things have happened.

But as of this moment i do not want to be here.

I know it’s hard to say that and then try and explain why, but i just don’t feel right around here. small things seem to be good and then big things happen that suck really bad.

Lately, I’ve learned that i can’t really trust people. maybe a few. but it seems that people like to cause hurt and drama, just because it makes them feel better about themselves…or so it seems. there is a loss of friendship and trust when people feel the need to gossip. especially when it hurts people feelings that were never intended to be hurt. but people gotta keep on talking don’t they. there’s a verse in the Bible that says not to let any unwholesome words come out of your mouth unless it’s edifying(which means to make better or positive) others. gossip definitely does NOT do that.

I don’t believe some people actually will ever mean what they say. in maybe a feel good moment or something that diffuses a situation they will say the “right thing” but then continue to be the complete opposite way. you maybe try to give them advice and they don’t want to hear it because non one should tell other people how to live right? even if it’s good for them!? i know no one is perfect, but can people not take advice without criticizing the giver? and do some of those people even want to change unless it’s convenient for them?

My group of friends is a church group. or so it seems. We don’t act like it. We act more like a social club that meets in a church. i’m just as guilty as the rest of them. We don’t act like followers of Jesus but we want all the benefits that come with it. We wonder why our families and friends don’t like church or aren’t serious about their faith. THINGS NEED TO CHANGE!!!

I put my heart into something that never was gonna be what i expected. it was a dangerous jump but sometimes you think people are better than the rest of the world. and now i am hurting a lot from it. something that will take me a long time to get over and a lot of forgetting that isn’t easy to do.

I want love. God’s love. love that doesn’t mind growing and changing. a love that knows it’s in for a difficult journey but is excited just the same.

Things will never be the same. I just want some positive thinking. i want people to WANT to be better, to grow, to improve. why just be like you’ve always been? i’m not down for laziness anymore. not in writing blogs, not in growing up, not in being a good friend, especially not in following Jesus and God’s call.

Things will never change if i never change.

So keep me in prayer. This will be a difficult journey and it might lead me other places, it might not.

Let’s be real. Let’s be different than the world. Let’s change it. Let’s be Jesus.

so if you didn’t know, conversation and communication are the most important things in life. seriously. i kind of always knew but it hit me hard last night. no one understands you if you never say anything.

so say something. just don’t blow up. explain things before they get bad. say hi. tell people about your day.

that’s all for now. look forward to more goodness from Senor Lorenzo.(THAT WOULD BE ME!)

tell your friends. leave some comments. let me know you’re alive out there.